So "See Ya, SJC Tour", "Hello (again), NYC". So here I am back in the city. Starting a new year and a new chapter yet again. I may have mentioned in a previous post that last year was just kind....so, so. I felt like I started on such a good note and then just fell back on old habits and insecurities. But hey, you just pick yourself up and dust yourself off and start again. I'm not really one for New Year's Resolutions, but...actually I totally am. I love the idea of getting a fresh start at the start of a new year, even if it is just an illusion. So this year I made a list...things I wanted to get done, things I wanted to be... I have to say, so far I am nailing it. Maybe I subconsciously waited til March to write this just to see how it all went...and you know what? I actually think it's going really well!
2015 is the year of being happy and healthy. I know, I know...isn't it always? But listen, I absolutely believe in the power of the mind...call it the law of attraction or whatever (but not that "Secret" bullshit.) And I can occasionally be wishy washy, but when I do set something in my mind I am usually gonna somehow make it happen. Things start to come out of the woodwork to aid me in my pursuit. Which is exactly what happened these past couple of months...
First of all, let's talk about my friend Lindsey Clayton. She's a star and she is someone with which I feel a definitely kinship. We tend to be on the same page in life most of the time, for better or for worse. So it wasn't a HUGE surprise when I came back home and Lindsey was also on a "happy and healthy 2015" kick - Lindsey had a major life change last year when she tore her ACL jokingly dancing to Taylor Swift (DAMN YOU, SWIFTY!) before one of her classes at Barry's Bootcamp and, as an in-demand trainer, it was really a huge blow that forced her to slow down and evaluate what was going on in her life. And while I didn't get injured this year, I kind of feel like I tore the ACL in my soul (**shhhhh....just go with it, move on.**) Things felt awkward and painful and stagnant. I am reminded of a great metaphor in this book I'm reading right now. The main character, a young boy, often says that he gets "heavy boots" when things are tough. And I get that. I had Heavy Boots for lots of last year. But Lindsey had found and taken this Vedic Meditation course before I got home and told me that she thought that it would be my jam. So I went and attended the Intro Talk with Emily Fletcher (a former Broadway performer) of Ziva Meditation. I was sold in like 5 minutes and ended up taking the course that same week. I'm not gonna get into the actual practice much, but it has definitely been just what I was looking for. It always amazes me when things show up in my life that I literally just wrote down a few days or weeks before... I get a residual check in the mail when I have needed more money, I book a show that asks me to dye my hair when I want to go from brunette to blonde, I get a job in Chicago just when I think I'd like to be home more often. It's really crazy. And this practice has been kind of taking care of a lot of the esoteric New Year's goals that I wrote down a couple of months ago. I have only been meditating for about a month, but I can't wait to be 3 months in...or 2 years in...or 10 years in. And it's really nice to have a friend that is working towards the same goals I am...while still enjoying an OCCASIONAL (**shhhhh...just go with it, move on**) bottle of champagne.
I have a ways to go, and there are definitely things that I need to work out...but I feel awesome and in control and inspired! I also found a great Yoga Groupon, so I've been working on that...cooking more of my own food...taking care of my mental/physical/emotional health. I've been working out a lot (again, huge kudos to Lindsey for always letting me use the comp to her class when I'm the most poor) and it feels good to be getting stronger and better and more grounded. Cause, yeah, I know...New Year's Resolutions, Ugh! But isn't it better to at least TRY to be a better/stronger/healthier/happier/fitter/smarter/kinder/braver human this new year? The other option doesn't really seem that appealing...
-e
